Showing posts with label nostalgia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nostalgia. Show all posts

Wednesday, July 03, 2013

Early works revisited: Marco Polo (2000)


I shot "Marco Polo" over Christmas break during my junior year of college with my dad's Hi-8 video camera and put it together in an analogue editing suite at school during the month of January. I had access thanks to the suite my involvement with the campus TV station. I remember NOT asking if I was allowed to use it for personal projects because I didn't want to be told no. Since the J-term was pretty quiet at school and I knew the guy who work-studied at the front desk, I slipped in under the radar once in a while.

It was an unforgiving editing machine -- once you laid down a clip, it stayed there. Each time you recorded over a section of VHS tape, the quality noticeably degraded, so the every cut was planned out ahead of time by going over logs of the tape in my dorm room.  The audio could only be laid down while the video was playing, with all adjustments happening real time, manually with a dial.  But all of this was an improvement over the "two VCR" method of editing that I'd used prior to this project.  Now you can do non-linear editing of HD video on your phone.  But in the year 2000, the opportunity to edit video was worth a great deal to me.

The news packages I was making at the time were each a few minutes long, contained hard cuts (i.e. no dissolve transitions), and were overlaid with one track of music and one track of voice -- all the same elements that comprise "Marco Polo".  If you dare, here's one of those news packages.  As rough as it is, it remains one of my favorites from the time because we had one day to record it and it was pouring rain outside the whole day.  We had to get creative and shot almost the entire thing from inside a car.  I lived for challenges like that.

While "Marco Polo" is meant to stand on its own, it ended up acting as a loose sequel (or epilogue?) to a collaboration between me and my brother called "The Winter War" that was worked on both before and after this one. "The Winter War" expands on the school-as-war metaphor by actually diving into the battles described in "Marco Polo." It was more ambitious in every aspect and took me over a year to edit (and this was back when I even had a lot of free time).  I can't wait to discuss that one in its own blog post eventually.

The first shot of "Marco Polo" sets the pace -- and it's a slow one. It doesn't hold up so well with the short attention spans found online today (I should talk).  The movie I made prior to this, "A Night In January" was something like 20 minutes long. "Marco Polo" was actually a response to that length, something that would be more likely to get into a no-budget film festival. Back then I thought it was streamlined, but who has time to sit down and watch a six-minute amateur movie these days?

There is very little camera movement in the film. Using a tripod was important because the steadiness was the only production value separating this project from a home video.  Once the camera was on the tripod, I didn't touch it.  Any movement would have been too jerky.  If there are jitters present, they are probably the result of tape degradation.

The film is scored by a slow burning Depeche Mode song. That's a band that will show up again, quite memorably if you ask me, in "The Winter War" along with all of my other favorite bands of the time. "Marco Polo" is shorter and the mood is more singular, so it felt right to limit the soundtrack to one song.

The opening and closing credits are not in their original form. Originally, they were typed up in Power Point, displayed on a computer monitor, and then I simply pointed the camera at them. Unfortunately the camera wasn't quite level and I didn't notice the problem until I was in the editing suite, so I used them anyway. A couple of years later when I transferred the film to a computer for the first time, I replaced the credits with the current digital title cards. I know it's only in my head but they still appear not-quite-level to me.

I don't want to dive too deep into the intended meaning behind the film. You can probably tell there are some personal bits in it, although don't get too caught up in that thinking because there's still plenty of artistic license at play. The overall theme comes from the feeling I would get being on Christmas break during 5th or 6th grade. Those were rough years for me. I felt like the world was trying to corrupt me or at least bully me.  It probably would have been more poignant (but perhaps more typical) to represent the horrors of war by telling a story about kids in school, but I swapped it around and used war as a metaphor for school because that was more meaningful and relate-able to me.  I like small-scale, personal films, not global or political ones.

So there's all these lines like "they taught me so much" and "playing with such a toy..." and references to childhood like the monster under the bed scene and birthday parties and the game Marco Polo itself.  There's the shot of Trev wearing a graduation gown in front of a mirror.  I loved the idea including bits that couldn't be literally explained but still conjure up some meaning.  I was much more interested in moods and atmosphere at the time than I was with plot.  Those are still the types of movies I like to watch today.

My favorite scene is in the middle when we see the black and white movie playing on a TV screen. The footage playing was originally it's own project called "Five Years" and it was edited entirely in-camera. By cutting between it and the "Marco Polo" footage I was able to eliminate some of the roughness and gaps "Five Years" had as its own film. It made a nice home for this other video project that wasn't good enough to stand on its own and didn't seem to fit anywhere else. As far as what is happening in this movie within a movie... It has something to do with calling a girl.

My least favorite scene is the one with my cameo as the friend who gets "eaten by the monster under the bed."  First of all, it's not very well shot. I had to frame the sequence without seeing me in it, hit record, and then get into position. I had very little to work with while editing and reshooting wasn't an option because by the time I realized it wasn't going to work I was already back at school. Then there's the ridiculousness of the acting. It doesn't look like a monster is pulling me under the bed so much as I'm pulling myself under. And the animated making of the bed was just a bad idea that doesn't fit, even within the internal, skewed logic of the film.

I'm not sure where I got the idea for "Marco Polo" from, but the narration was inspired by the narration in Fight Club.  That movie had a huge impact on me, as mentioned here.

At one time I had the entire narration in "Marco Polo" memorized. I had spent a lot of time working on the words, tossing them around in my head over and over again, until they felt right. There's a point in that process where you cross a line between what might actually be poetic and what only sounds good because you've heard it so many times. I couldn't even tell you what side of that line this narration falls on because of my closeness to it.  I would literally recite the whole thing aloud to myself while driving or taking a shower or whenever, and I don't even know why.

If you want to take a closer look at the narration, I transcribed it below:

The winter war was over. Upon my homecoming, my loved ones greeted me at the door. They were unaware of the monster I had become. I was now the living, breathing embodiment of everything they hated. I had built a wall surrounding me – blocking me from all love and humanity. I was every woman’s broken heart. My parents had missed me, but they would continue to miss me because their son would never come home.

The war began in September. I forget the year. My friends were still spending their allowance on cigarettes. I had to roll them myself, but I got cigarettes for free. I got a lot of things for free. I’m just glad they let me keep my gun. Playing with such a toy could be dangerous, but I could handle it well. They taught me so much, including some valuable life lessons.

I was home in time for Christmas, but that made no difference. I guess not even love was enough to save me.  

I discovered my friend was dead. He was eaten by the monster under his bed. I’m sure we all know by now, human nature leads to bloodshed.

I must have been an emotional kid. I remember crying when I bit into a piece of candy with the plastic wrapper still on it. I cried other times for no reason at all - just to cry. I remember attending a birthday party where I didn’t know any of the boys very well. I started crying, and I told the birthday boy’s mom they were all picking on me. I’m not sure why I did that.

I had nice parents, but I remember them turning on me once. They made fun of my crying once. I used that moment to fill my head when I started killing. I can imagine people doing much worse things if their parents had acted that way more often.

Thucydides, a Greek historian, once said, “War is a stern teacher. In depriving them of the power of easily satisfying their daily wants, it brings most peoples minds down to the level of their actual circumstances. War also brings envy and revenge to the surface and frantic violence becomes the attribute of manliness; cautious plotting, a justifiable means of defense.”

I never noticed how alien the ears on the sides of my head looked until my return from the winter war.

My emotion has escaped me. I feel none. I wasn’t even upset when they took my eyes.

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I recently reviewed some of the uncut footage for "Marco Polo", and I can see I was demanding on my actor, Trevor.  I sound pretty bossy.  To be a filmmaker, you need a strong ego.  That's another thing I have lost in the years since, humbled by life in the real world and from watching amazing work from all kinds of creative people online.  That could be part of the reason for my lack of output lately.

I don't have a lot of "extras" for this project. I wish I had my original notes/script, but they are either somewhere in my parents' garage or lost forever.  I did find this blooper reel from when I was trying to get a line from Trevor for "Five Years."  It goes on a little long, but it fondly reminds me of the hours Trev and I used to spend working on projects like this.


After all that trouble, the line didn't get used anywhere, probably because it didn't make any sense.

Well, this has been an unorganized stream of thoughts about the film.  I'm trying not to spend too much time perfecting my writing.  I'd rather just get more of it out there.  I'm sure I'll be clarifying/expanding/fixing each of these entries as time goes on, so let's just consider this a rough starting point for now.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Three lakes

We usually try to make it home to Minnesota for the Fourth of July, but that date fell between France and a big work deadline this year, so we put our visit off until the last week of July instead. It actually worked out really well. This way we were able to attend a birthday/going-away party for R's sister at Pleasant Lake and a baby shower held for us at Ely Lake. We also spent some time at Lost Lake in between... So out of 10,000 lakes, we managed to spend quality time at three of them over the course of a week, which I'd say is pretty darned good. More important than lakes, however, we saw our families and some friends. It's always a pleasure.

Our niece and nephew are becoming even more adorable than before, if that is even possible. I went a little crazy with the picture taking. I can't help it. There's something in me that wants to preserve images of these kids. Maybe it has to do with living so far away and only seeing them a few times a year. My photos of them are the ones I find myself going back to and viewing more than any others I've taken. I can't truly capture their wacky personalities, their playfulness, or their spirit of discovery with a still photo, but I can sure try.

It's funny how our perception of Minnesota, the northern part of the state especially, changes the longer we are away: the blues and greens become more vibrant; the weather, more dynamic; the mosquitoes, worse. But other things don't change, like difficult good-byes and this feeling I get when I pass through my parents' neighborhood at dusk: I'm reminded of biking around aimlessly as a kid... of playing Nerf tennis with my mom on the driveway... of launching ants into space with bottle rockets... of living in the same house as my brothers... I'm not saying one time in my life was better than another; I'm just saying the nostalgia hits me hard sometimes if I let it.

If you haven't already seen the photos from our trip, check them out here.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Mud Brothers


How's this for a fun old film? It was recorded by my dad way back in the day, and I think it's a brilliant little piece of storytelling. The idea of capturing real moments like this (and attempting to manufacture them once in a while as well) is one of the reasons I wanted to get into video production. You are looking at some of my inspiration.

I always thought this clip would make a good character developing flashback in a larger work, possibly to demonstrate the start of a character's corruption or something. I'm not saying that's what happened to me in real life, but in some ways this does respresent my relationship with my older brother and our separate personalities. I think this piece speaks for itself.

I added the Smashing Pumpkins soundtrack and the feathered edge to increase the dreaminess of it. That's what it feels like to me when I watch it: a dream or a faded memory. I'm so glad I have this one preserved.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Campus Scope ad

Check out this clip that aired on my college campus' TV station circa 1999... and has been rarely seen by anybody since. A guy named Stephen did most of the work for this one. I helped mainly with the concept and by sharing my wondrous acting ability with the world. As long as we're laying down some sarcasm, I should also mention how great the buzzed sides of my self-given haircut look. See for yourself.


I digitized this video, along with some old news packages I made for Campus Scope (our monthly college news program), from a VHS tape a few years ago. And I just recently unearthed the files on my hard drive. It was fun to pull them out, see some of the old sights around campus (like my dorm room in the video above), and fondly remember the early days of my hobby.

When you watch this you have to keep in mind it was made before digital video cameras and nonlinear editing software were available to students like us. Today you can probably shoot a better looking clip on a cell-phone. The editing here was done on a reel-to-reel tape machine. I remember spending many hours in that editing suite, usually late at night because that was the only time it was available. Sometimes I would sneak in and work on my personal projects as well. I don't think that was allowed on the school's equipment, but I made a point of never asking because I didn't want to know for sure. One of my favorite old shorts, "Marco Polo," was created during these times (that one has yet to make its internet debut).

I was so thrilled by the process back then. It seemed like anything could be made interesting if you put it in front of a camera. Distorting time and mixing images via editing was like a magic trick. It's kind of a shame now that I have a decent camera and my own personal editing system, and here I am NOT constantly using it. Maybe I'm running out of ideas. Maybe the pressure of my day job is sucking the life out of me. Maybe I'm worried that I don't have the resources (e.g. people, lights, a smooth tripod) to make anything that will look good enough. But rising standards or a lack of time should not be an excuse; I need to get out there and shoot something new.

There was one interesting development this week... I was asked to assist with a music video shoot happening during an upcoming weekend. It's for the local band Threadspinner who, as you probably know, I'm a big fan of. Once again, it's not my own project, but the group of people involved with the video and the music are incredibly creative and it is an honor to get the chance to work with them. Also, from what I've heard of the shoot so far, it sounds right up my late-night-atmosphere-loving alley. I'll let you know how it goes.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

An oldie

I'll keep this short, as I still want to get back to some editing tonight. The new year has re-ignited my passion for my latest video project; I should act on that as much as possible. I just wanted to share the above photo of yours truly in his youth. My dad has been going through boxes of old slides, scanning them into his computer (he and I share an interest in preserving the past), and emailing a few of the notable ones to me. I don't think I had ever seen these photos before he sent them, at least not any time recent enough for them to remain in my memory, so they have been fun to see. When R and I have a child of our own (nothing currently scheduled), you can bet he or she is going to get the full coverage treatment: photos with fancy lenses, HD video... the whole works. Did you expect anything less?

Saturday, November 22, 2008

The meaning of "Midnight Toast"

The title of my blog comes from my senior year at St. Thomas when I was living with three other guys in an on-campus apartment. Most nights we would group together in the kitchen and share the interesting parts of our days. I don't think any of us had early classes that year, so we were up late studying (or at least exploring the internet) every night and midnight was the perfect time for a snack and a chat. Maybe they ate leftover pizza or applesauce or whatever, but toast with (lots of) peanutbutter on it was usually my choice. I came to refer to the break as my midnight toast. I'm not sure if the other guys used that name or if they would even know what I'm referring to today, but our discussions were one of the highlights of my school year. They were all the proof I needed that the best conversations occur late at night... and so do the best blog entries.