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Friday, March 25, 2016
2015 recap
I like this photo. It places me at the center of the family. I'm being clung to despite being somebody who does not exactly appreciate clinginess, and it's okay because I love my family enough to allow it. I love how crazy parenting can be and the mess it creates because that's what makes me feel like I'm living. There also are times I want to scream because it's all too much. That's the paradox of it, I guess. Nothing can be both easy and rewarding.
Here we are in March and I'm finally posting my end of 2015 recap. It's going to be short and poorly written because, frankly, I just need to get this done.
The kids are ages 5 and 1. They are the most fun people to be around. And their challenges are different enough so that... we face a wide array of challenges. We don't get out nearly as much as we used to, but I'm such a homebody that it suits me.
Trips-wise, we went to Santa Barbara, Colorado, and Winnipeg. Maybe it's the constant stream of reminders via social media, but we're still having trouble leaving California behind. Living there for five years simply spoiled us for the rest of the country. We appreciated it while we were there, but we appreciate it even more now. Minnesota has its pluses, although there are extra complications that arise from them. We're still adapting.
It was a satisfying year creatively for me. I won first prize in the People and Families category of the Shoreview photo contest in the spring and the grand prize in the fall. I also spent a lot of time on my short film, even prioritizing it over my regular photography habits. It wasn't finished until 2016, so I won't include a link here in my 2015 recap. I will post it once I figure out what I want to say about it.
That's it for now. My Peas blog has a better memory than me, so I encourage to click around over there if you want to see more about our year. 2016 is off to a good start and may include some changes for us. Let's stay in touch.
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Thursday, December 31, 2015
Early works revisited: Four Rocks Down (2001/2003)
This is a continuation of a series in which I look back at various video projects I have worked on, mostly for my own records. More information can be found here.
It might not seem like much now, but this is a big one for me. When I mentioned "Marco Polo" was a turning point, it is because "Four Rocks Down" came after it and then "Quit" after that. These weren't the most time-consuming or most beautiful looking projects I've worked on, but they are the peak of fun I've had with the filmmaking process and the two best examples of storytelling in a catalog that does not have much emphasis on storytelling.
"Four Rocks Down" was shot almost entirely over 24 hours with two collaborators, Tom and Mark. It was a long, memorable night with a short follow up in my apartment the next morning. Months later I grabbed the shots of the burning shed when my dad conveniently decided to dispose of an old outhouse next to our hunting shack.
I had made my previous three films alone. Well, my brother stood in front of the camera for me a few times, but more often I pointed the camera at myself or some (other) inanimate object. There are limitations to that. Collaboration was necessary. Three people is still a small number, especially when they are the cast and the crew both, but it was enough to tackle an actual story. Whoever was not in front of the camera was shooting it. It was a luxury to be able to frame a shot and not have to worry about where I would fit into it and to have someone else trustworthy behind the camera not only hitting the record button but also moving the camera as needed (camera movement, imagine that!).
Mark had been trying to start up a film club during our senior year at college -- not a club where you watch films but rather where you make them. I got to know him in a film theory course we were both in. I enrolled to meet my art requirement, but honestly I was looking forward to it more than any other class I'd ever taken. The professor was an old film critic and a tough grader. I watched David Lynch's Blue Velvet six times over the course of the semester, paying attention to different aspects of the production each time and writing papers on them. Instead of a final exam, I received special permission to write a screenplay and used the opportunity to flesh out my script for "Dreamer," a project I had started a few years earlier. My professor ripped it to shreds but gave me an A. I still have his feedback and always planned to rewrite based on it (hasn't happened yet).
Mark and I, along with our mutual friend Tom, were the three interested in joining a film club. The trouble was we had just graduated. Mark was moving out of the state in, literally, a few days. (We made "Quit" together a year and a half later during one of his visits back home). I had let Mark read the "Dreamer" script and he wanted to shoot that, but we didn't have the locations or the cast or nowhere near enough time, so we came up with something more manageable instead.
"Four Rocks Down" starts with a languid pace timed to some Twin Peaks music, which is appropriate enough as this was made at the height of my obsession with that TV series. I was also watching a lot of film noir and was influenced by the movies with non-linear structures that were coming out around this time (e.g. Memento). That is what led to the ambiguous, "earlier" and "later" time jumps and the twist ending that holds up pretty well if you're able to follow everything that leads there. I really liked the idea of needing to watch a movie multiple times to understand it and seeing things differently when viewed from different perspectives.
Take the scene where Detective Gomez visits my apartment at night to bring me in for questioning... We see part of the scene and it fits perfectly into the original context. Later we revisit the scene, this time extending it, and it fits perfectly into the new context as well. It was a concept we would later revisit in "Quit", but it works better here.
The story concept was conceived during an evening at Plum's bar, which gets a shout out in the movie. I don't remember much from that night other than being absolutely thrilled to be discussing a project like this with two other people that cared about it and were interested in making it a reality. It's a bummer our partnership didn't last longer because I would love to have more results from those years following college. I made "Cottage Cheese" and "Drunken Laundry" on my own instead, but imagine what could have been.
We shot "Four Rocks Down" on Mark's Sony 8mm video camera (except for the burning shed scenes again, for which I used my dad's camera). Looking back, the camera was so easy to work with. I don't think it had the option to turn off auto-focus or auto-exposure, and it did pretty well in low light as long as you don't mind the grain that comes with it. We never could have recorded as much as we did in such a short amount of time if we had been using one of today's DSLRs. Setting up a shot with my camera now is a hassle... back then we just ran with it.
Obviously amateur entertainment like this requires a serious suspension of disbelief. I wish we'd had some more realistic looking guns. The fight scenes are stiff and obviously staged. And, come on, we fit half a million dollars in a shoe box? There's also no character development and bad acting (although we passed this off as the characters being bad actors since much of their dialogue is lies to each other). The movie is full of flaws and the casual viewer may not be able to look past them, but I have learned to love them.
Guess what -- you can't make a perfect movie with no budget. Lately I feel like my standards get too high. I think if I can't do something well, I won't do it. 15 years ago my creative life was filled with a "just do it" attitude... I was okay making something less than perfect. It's inspiring for me to watch this now.
I wasn't able to edit the movie until two years after we shot it. I didn't have a computer that was capable of editing video and I no longer had access to the college's editing suite. I wrote in an old journal at one point that the project was "doomed to the graveyard of incompletion." I guess I thought we didn't even have all the footage we needed and there would be no way to get everyone back together to continue filming.
When I did buy a new computer in 2003, I set to work on it immediately with what we had and somehow it all fit together. There was supposed to be more to the story, but when I was done I couldn't imagine it any other way. It was a magical experience and I absolutely fell in love with the editing process.
How about that twist ending? We were pretty proud of the ambiguity of who gets thrown from the car.
Sorry for the lack of "bonus material" this time. If I were to revisit the source tapes, I know I could find something to share. I'll add to this entry if/when I ever get around to that.
I promised myself I would get this entry posted before the end of the year, so here I am on New Years Eve trying to conjure up fading memories. The purpose of this retrospective is to get these memories written down so they are not forever lost. I'm afraid I can't do that fast enough these days -- too many other priorities, including a new short film that I am really excited about. I am so thankful I have the finished films themselves preserved (at least for now).
It might not seem like much now, but this is a big one for me. When I mentioned "Marco Polo" was a turning point, it is because "Four Rocks Down" came after it and then "Quit" after that. These weren't the most time-consuming or most beautiful looking projects I've worked on, but they are the peak of fun I've had with the filmmaking process and the two best examples of storytelling in a catalog that does not have much emphasis on storytelling.
"Four Rocks Down" was shot almost entirely over 24 hours with two collaborators, Tom and Mark. It was a long, memorable night with a short follow up in my apartment the next morning. Months later I grabbed the shots of the burning shed when my dad conveniently decided to dispose of an old outhouse next to our hunting shack.
I had made my previous three films alone. Well, my brother stood in front of the camera for me a few times, but more often I pointed the camera at myself or some (other) inanimate object. There are limitations to that. Collaboration was necessary. Three people is still a small number, especially when they are the cast and the crew both, but it was enough to tackle an actual story. Whoever was not in front of the camera was shooting it. It was a luxury to be able to frame a shot and not have to worry about where I would fit into it and to have someone else trustworthy behind the camera not only hitting the record button but also moving the camera as needed (camera movement, imagine that!).
Mark had been trying to start up a film club during our senior year at college -- not a club where you watch films but rather where you make them. I got to know him in a film theory course we were both in. I enrolled to meet my art requirement, but honestly I was looking forward to it more than any other class I'd ever taken. The professor was an old film critic and a tough grader. I watched David Lynch's Blue Velvet six times over the course of the semester, paying attention to different aspects of the production each time and writing papers on them. Instead of a final exam, I received special permission to write a screenplay and used the opportunity to flesh out my script for "Dreamer," a project I had started a few years earlier. My professor ripped it to shreds but gave me an A. I still have his feedback and always planned to rewrite based on it (hasn't happened yet).
Mark and I, along with our mutual friend Tom, were the three interested in joining a film club. The trouble was we had just graduated. Mark was moving out of the state in, literally, a few days. (We made "Quit" together a year and a half later during one of his visits back home). I had let Mark read the "Dreamer" script and he wanted to shoot that, but we didn't have the locations or the cast or nowhere near enough time, so we came up with something more manageable instead.
"Four Rocks Down" starts with a languid pace timed to some Twin Peaks music, which is appropriate enough as this was made at the height of my obsession with that TV series. I was also watching a lot of film noir and was influenced by the movies with non-linear structures that were coming out around this time (e.g. Memento). That is what led to the ambiguous, "earlier" and "later" time jumps and the twist ending that holds up pretty well if you're able to follow everything that leads there. I really liked the idea of needing to watch a movie multiple times to understand it and seeing things differently when viewed from different perspectives.
Take the scene where Detective Gomez visits my apartment at night to bring me in for questioning... We see part of the scene and it fits perfectly into the original context. Later we revisit the scene, this time extending it, and it fits perfectly into the new context as well. It was a concept we would later revisit in "Quit", but it works better here.
The story concept was conceived during an evening at Plum's bar, which gets a shout out in the movie. I don't remember much from that night other than being absolutely thrilled to be discussing a project like this with two other people that cared about it and were interested in making it a reality. It's a bummer our partnership didn't last longer because I would love to have more results from those years following college. I made "Cottage Cheese" and "Drunken Laundry" on my own instead, but imagine what could have been.
We shot "Four Rocks Down" on Mark's Sony 8mm video camera (except for the burning shed scenes again, for which I used my dad's camera). Looking back, the camera was so easy to work with. I don't think it had the option to turn off auto-focus or auto-exposure, and it did pretty well in low light as long as you don't mind the grain that comes with it. We never could have recorded as much as we did in such a short amount of time if we had been using one of today's DSLRs. Setting up a shot with my camera now is a hassle... back then we just ran with it.
Obviously amateur entertainment like this requires a serious suspension of disbelief. I wish we'd had some more realistic looking guns. The fight scenes are stiff and obviously staged. And, come on, we fit half a million dollars in a shoe box? There's also no character development and bad acting (although we passed this off as the characters being bad actors since much of their dialogue is lies to each other). The movie is full of flaws and the casual viewer may not be able to look past them, but I have learned to love them.
Guess what -- you can't make a perfect movie with no budget. Lately I feel like my standards get too high. I think if I can't do something well, I won't do it. 15 years ago my creative life was filled with a "just do it" attitude... I was okay making something less than perfect. It's inspiring for me to watch this now.
I wasn't able to edit the movie until two years after we shot it. I didn't have a computer that was capable of editing video and I no longer had access to the college's editing suite. I wrote in an old journal at one point that the project was "doomed to the graveyard of incompletion." I guess I thought we didn't even have all the footage we needed and there would be no way to get everyone back together to continue filming.
When I did buy a new computer in 2003, I set to work on it immediately with what we had and somehow it all fit together. There was supposed to be more to the story, but when I was done I couldn't imagine it any other way. It was a magical experience and I absolutely fell in love with the editing process.
How about that twist ending? We were pretty proud of the ambiguity of who gets thrown from the car.
Sorry for the lack of "bonus material" this time. If I were to revisit the source tapes, I know I could find something to share. I'll add to this entry if/when I ever get around to that.
I promised myself I would get this entry posted before the end of the year, so here I am on New Years Eve trying to conjure up fading memories. The purpose of this retrospective is to get these memories written down so they are not forever lost. I'm afraid I can't do that fast enough these days -- too many other priorities, including a new short film that I am really excited about. I am so thankful I have the finished films themselves preserved (at least for now).
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Harter family portraits 2015
I shot the Harter family's photos again this fall. We did it a little later in the season so a lot of the color was gone, but I think it was actually good to distinguish the look from last year's. The other distinction is that they are expecting a new baby!
It still feels weird to share another family's photos, but I want to document my photography work on this blog. Here are a few favorites from the session:
It still feels weird to share another family's photos, but I want to document my photography work on this blog. Here are a few favorites from the session:
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Wednesday, August 19, 2015
Portrait of a piano teacher
The longer I practice photography, the more I appreciate good lighting. I don't even bother to take my camera out of the bag in certain conditions. A talented photographer, however, can adapt to whatever the conditions are and make something interesting out of them. It's good to have goals.
My wife's dear friend Emily is a piano teacher and she asked me to take some head shots to help promote her business. The lighting conditions for this shoot were tricky -- overcast skies are great when you are outdoors, but they can be too dim inside, especially when evening is coming on. There were also windows on three sides of the room, making it difficult to avoid heavy back light from most angles. I've shot in more challenging environments, but something about this set-up was just draining my inspiration. I didn't have a good feeling about what I captured at the end of the night.
Do you know what saved the project? Shooting in RAW format and putting in a lot of work in Photoshop. The results still look a little stretched and strained to me, but that may only because I saw behind the curtain.
Here are my favorites from the set:
My wife's dear friend Emily is a piano teacher and she asked me to take some head shots to help promote her business. The lighting conditions for this shoot were tricky -- overcast skies are great when you are outdoors, but they can be too dim inside, especially when evening is coming on. There were also windows on three sides of the room, making it difficult to avoid heavy back light from most angles. I've shot in more challenging environments, but something about this set-up was just draining my inspiration. I didn't have a good feeling about what I captured at the end of the night.
Do you know what saved the project? Shooting in RAW format and putting in a lot of work in Photoshop. The results still look a little stretched and strained to me, but that may only because I saw behind the curtain.
Here are my favorites from the set:
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Friday, February 13, 2015
2014 recap
Okay, I'm going to sit down and finally knock this out...
There are four of us now. Our son, Omri, was born in September and we sure like having him around! He's just the sweetest little guy you'll ever meet. The way he'll flash a smile or let out a loud "Ah-goo-goo!" in quiet room just melts my heart with cuteness. It really does feel like he completes our family.
Veronica is now four years old and has taken her position as head of the household. She's incredibly precocious and wants to play, play, play (or watch videos or read books) all the time. She has developed a sense of humor that would fit right into a Cottage Cheese movie. She's helping me think up sketches for the sequel!
R was pregnant for the first three-quarters of the year and then we were busy taking care of an infant for the remainder, so we didn't get out much and spent a lot of time settling into our new house. Our bigger projects involved replacing the deck and finishing the basement (with help, of course). I don't know if the place will ever truly be "done," but it's getting closer to the way we want it.
2014 wasn't a big year for travel. We did manage to spend our spring break visiting our old home of Santa Barbara. We also camped a few nights up at the Winnipeg Folk Festival and made a few weekend trips, mostly to visit our parents in northern Minnesota.
It was our first full year in this state since 2003. It's been an adjustment, especially the parts about being away at work for 10 hours a day and caring for a second child. I will find a good balance between family, hobbies, and work and then something will change and knock it out of whack again. But there is this calmness that has settled in me or a patience in knowing that I have all the free time I need -- it's just spread out over the rest of my life. I think that comes from being in a place that feels more permanent.
Speaking of patience, 2015 may or may not see the release of a short film I've been working on for almost a year already. There's a little more information about it in the 1000th post on my Four Peas blog. Lastly, let me promise you this: I will publish the next part in my "Early works revisited" series this year.
Take care, everyone.
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Friday, November 14, 2014
Iron Range, part 2: Sparta
I'm continuing to document the area of northern Minnesota in which I grew up. These were taken back in July during a photo walk through the disappearing town of Sparta. The light wasn't great and my time was limited, but believe me: this location is a photographer's dream. I barely scratched the surface of this place.
The shot below was actually taken the day I did my Gilbert photo walk, but the location is actually closer to Sparta so I'm including it here instead:
The shot below was actually taken the day I did my Gilbert photo walk, but the location is actually closer to Sparta so I'm including it here instead:
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Monday, November 10, 2014
Harter family portrait session
I feel a little weird posting another family's photos on my blog, but I want to share my work. I shot these around mid-October when the fall colors were at their peak. This was a favor to some friends and also good practice shooting portraits. I wanted to see if I could pull it off and to ask myself if this is something I want to do more of. Sessions like this (and hours of editing) are fun but not as fun as, say, working on a short film. This is also the kind of work that demands perfection. My skill level isn't as high as my tastes, which can lead to frustration. But overall, I think my friends received some decent options for a Christmas card and I learned a thing or two for next time.
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Thursday, July 10, 2014
Desk restoration project
This desk was used in Gilbert Elementary School back when my parents went there (and who knows how long before that). It got to be in rough shape over the years with rust and peeling paint/stain.
I took it apart and stripped it down to bare wood and metal.
The wood damage and ink stains lightened a bit with sanding, but there was no way I was going to get rid of them completely. And since the desk is going to continue to get heavy use by multiple kids, I was okay settling for less than perfection here. Veronica picked out the purple paint, which I applied (also less than perfectly) along with a stain/polyurethane finish. I added some bumpers to the underside of the lid to keep kids' hands from getting smashed... and voila!
I took it apart and stripped it down to bare wood and metal.
The wood damage and ink stains lightened a bit with sanding, but there was no way I was going to get rid of them completely. And since the desk is going to continue to get heavy use by multiple kids, I was okay settling for less than perfection here. Veronica picked out the purple paint, which I applied (also less than perfectly) along with a stain/polyurethane finish. I added some bumpers to the underside of the lid to keep kids' hands from getting smashed... and voila!
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Saturday, June 28, 2014
The place to myself
I ended up with the house to myself this weekend. This is only the second such occurrence since Veronica was born, and with a new baby arriving in September, it is probably going to be last time for an even longer stretch.
As much as I love time with my wife and daughter, I've been really looking forward to this weekend. I have a few projects lined up like restoring an old school desk that has just been too difficult to tackle with a three year old around. She sure likes to help, especially when paint is involved!
Other fun plans:
- Watch the sci-fi thriller Prometheus
- Work on my "Grind" video mood piece
- Get some exercise
- Have a drink
The bummer is I had a work install happening on Friday night and Saturday morning (just finishing up now!), so some of my best hours went toward that. I'm also sick with a pretty bad cold that is slowing me down. And of course, there are a bunch of chores to do around here and errands to run. Enough blogging about it -- time to make use of this time!
As much as I love time with my wife and daughter, I've been really looking forward to this weekend. I have a few projects lined up like restoring an old school desk that has just been too difficult to tackle with a three year old around. She sure likes to help, especially when paint is involved!
Other fun plans:
- Watch the sci-fi thriller Prometheus
- Work on my "Grind" video mood piece
- Get some exercise
- Have a drink
The bummer is I had a work install happening on Friday night and Saturday morning (just finishing up now!), so some of my best hours went toward that. I'm also sick with a pretty bad cold that is slowing me down. And of course, there are a bunch of chores to do around here and errands to run. Enough blogging about it -- time to make use of this time!
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